• Issues and a Confession

    Posted on May 17, 2013 by in Adventure Awaits, Latest Updates, Meet Me

    I have issues. I have so many issues I don’t even know what they all are. I don’t normally like to write about my personal life but sometime to further understanding and bring important things to light it is necessary.

    I bring this all up because I have confession to make. I did not make it to the Maryland Sheep and Wool Festival. I say, “I did not make it” because I tried so hard, and though my desired goal was not obtained I did learn something interesting about myself, therefore I did not fail. I learned the name of one of my issues, it is called Anxiety and it is closely related to some of my other issues, Control and Perfectionism. They are kind of like triplets.

    I was all packed up and made it into the city and then I freaked out over some things that I now know would have been handled easily, but headed back home to start over again and realized there was so much more going on than I thought.

    I had to ask myself “How can a woman who drove 2,568 miles be afraid of a day trip?” How, because I was not in full control, I had some questions I could not answer, but not dare ask the questions because I had to be perfectly capable all by myself.  I have issues and they revolve around mental illness, anxiety, control issues, self-esteem, perfectionism, depression, procrastinating and it appears they are all wrapped into a nifty little ball sitting between my heart and my gut.

    As one of my favorite Psychology teachers use to say, “If you have a tooth ache you go to a dentist, if you have a Psych-ache you need to see a Psychologist.”

    So now I know what I have to do…. Luckily knitting helps.Sheeps

    Hang in there everybody and

    Blissful Knitting,


5 Responses so far.

  1. Chris says:

    You are strong and awesome and brave! And I’m really sorry I was sick on Monday and missed you.

  2. Jaala Spiro says:

    You’re a brave woman to bring this into the open, and to keep moving forward every day! Little ball or not, you’ve done lots to be proud of and will continue to do so. Is there someone you can call to “talk you down” when things get rough? Happy to volunteer…;)

  3. linda says:

    For a minute there I thought you were writing about me. :-)…Keep your focus, don’t sweat the small stuff, do what you want to do, not what you think you “have” to do. And if all else fails, keep knitting. Love you…now if I could just follow my advice.

  4. DrK says:

    I think its really important and brave to write publically about this stuff, we need to let other people know theyre not alone and also remind people that even those of us who looklike we’ve got it all together struggle somedays to leave the house. I really relate to this post, thank you for publishing it. Next time it will be easier.

  5. Rich says:

    I’m just getting caught up on blog posts. It’s very courageous to post something this personal, and I admire you for it. Keep in mind that you have a whole community of people who support and care about you.

Contact Form Powered By : XYZScripts.com